"Freedom and responsibility we speak of easily, nearly always without recognition of the iron courage required to make them effective in our lives." j. glenn gray

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Still Alive, Just Recuperating

Here it has been nearly two weeks and I am still mulling over bits from my journey to Ground Zero. There is just so much that happened, from individual acts of kindness to expanses of beautiful American countryside to listening to the rain fall on my tent, that I think I'll need a lifetime to actually appreciate all of it. I spent the first day simply unloading, cleaning and stowing away my gear then, I slept for the better part of three days. The next four days I spent simply sitting and thinking about my journey in such a melancholy as to not even want to visit with friends or family. I cannot define a beginning or end to my sadness nor can I begin to explain why I felt that way...I just did.

I have been guilty of not completing my journal for this mission. Truthfully, I do not want to make the last entry in the blog because that would mean that it has officially ended and, I'm just not ready for that right now. I'm working up to it though. I met with my psychiatrist last Friday and we, including Theresa, spoke for quite some time about this journey and the near future. It was a positive meeting and I think the outlook is good. I've loaded a new photo journal on my laptop and have begun organizing the pics from the ride. I have a few left from my days in New York along with some final thoughts that I will be posting in the next day or two. While it all must come to an end sooner or later, we can at least savor it a little longer. I will always remember and think fondly of this journey.

On the other hand, my good friend Anthony and I are discussing our own venture that would provide for immediate assistance needs for Military Service Members and those who care for them (i.e. firefighters, law enforcement, etc.) in our communities; a sort of EMS Rapid Response for Troops who need immediate relief with healthcare, budgets, family support, housing, transportation, etc. It is still in its infancy but, we both want to be able to help our Troops at a personal level giving back to those who gave so much for us. We are both motivated and passionate about making this a successful undertaking, so, I think you may see something in the works very soon. I'll keep you posted as this develops and, please, feel free to comment on what you think about our project.

Ride On!